I Used to Say I was Tired

I Used to Say I was Tired

I used to say I was tired

When people asked how I was

What I really meant to say

Was I’m tired of being tired

Was tired of feeling my feelings

Was tired of being alone

I got tired of saying I was tired

So I started saying I was good.

Even though inside I was exhausted

I got good at saying I was good.

So good that I thought I was good.

That the melancholic 2am’s

Searching the hallways

And lawns

And empty classrooms

And bar stools

For someone who I could be tired with.

I am good now.

I’m only tired when I need sleep

And I am excited for the morning.